Bedtime Beliefs.

I don't really think this needs much of an explanation, but yeah I was lying down in bed... in the end I had to write it down.

Thoughts constantly running through my head as I'm lying down in bed,
I really want you to see,
your the only girl I need,
because your more amazing then I expected you to be,
your more amazing than anything I asked for,
I live for the moment you walk through my door,
when I hear your coming over I get so excited,
it feels like my whole life has just brightened,
the light could be coming from your smile, or your eyes,
each as piercing as the last, when I see them I feel right inside,
I hope you feel the same about me too,
but I really hope you know I want to be with you.

Reminising You.

I wrote this for my Grandad, he meant a lot to me he was an amazing guy who had a very hard life. In a way he was very similar to me, but he died of cancer, but I will never forget someone who was so close to my heart.

Looking up to the sky reminising moments from your life,
you were the best friend I ever had,
but am I supposed to be happy, or sad?
you could even be looking down at me now,
telling me not to worry, that your free now,
I just need a message that I know was sent from you,
and then I can stop feeling so fucking confused,
I'll love you forever, you know that I will,
but you know I've been depressed since I heard you were killed,
what happened to you we know wasn't right,
but in the end it was too big a fight,
I could have seen you the night before you died,
but I couldn't see your face after having cried,
you were too much of a man, I was too proud of you too.
but now your gone,
what am I supposed to do?

Lustful Ignorance

I tend to write a lot when I don't have much else to do, apart from school work obviously.. but lets not talk about that. It was raining outside and I just started rhyming in my head, and eventually I came out with this.

You are the sun, the moon, the stars,
the only relationship with no bars,
because these things aren't beautiful to me,
you are the one and only beauty that I see,
the fact is you came into my life so fast,
and we may not have had the best past,
but you have to see I love you so much,
because so many parts of my life you've touched,
and opening up like this isn't something I would do,
if I hadn't completely fallen for you,
I'm sitting here and it's raining outside,
thinking without you I just want to hide,
the big wide world seems so much more daunting,
and no you begins to feel so haunting,
but just one big stumble,
and a relationship like ours could crumble,
after loving you for all these years,
turns out one wrong move ends in tears,
this is something I don't want from us,
I just wish we could have had a little more trust.

Moving Places

I used to move a lot when I was younger... Africa, Saudi Arabia, England this list goes on... I wrote this when I actually sat down and thought of where the perfect place to be actually would be.

The big blue sea,
in it's entirity,
it's what we're made from,
it's where we came from,
it's where we should stilll be,
wave by wave,
in the sea comes,
never stopping,
never asking,
why it's gotta be done,
we use it to travel,
from place to place,
sometimes to leave no trace,
from grass to gravel,
from blue to grey,
you deal with what your dealt,
because hopefully soon one day,
you'll feel what I want felt,
and find the perfect place to stay.

Dream-Like Perfection

This is actually something that I also wrote in Australia, I was about to go surfing. I looked out at the ocean and the only thing I could think of was my girlfriend (at the time) her not being there was the only thing that was wrong about the picture. I actually emailed this to her as soon as I got back to the house I was staying in.

Some beautiful birds,
even more fantastic surfs,
and the nicest people ever,
and yet I'm still on the end of my teather,
but experiencing all this without you,
I suppose it's something I never wanted to do,
not having you by my side,
feels like a pain that won't subside,
and sure this is an amazing place,
but I won't feel great until I see your face,
your gorgeous long blonde hair,
your eyes so deep I can't help but stare,
your smile so bright it lights up the room,
not having you would be my version of doom,
I must be a very greedy guy,
I have the sea, the sun and blue sky,
but this is not perfection ; nowhere near,
it could only be perfect if you were here.

B Bar & Grill

I wrote this when I was chilling in Australia over the summer. I've written a whole bunch of lyrics and poems recnelty but I haven't put any on so I'm gonna do a catch up today.. The title of this poem is the cafe that I was sitting in, looking out over the ocean seeing whales spouting and stuff, it was pretty inspirational really.

Waves coming in,
waves going out,
even some water from a whales spout,
come to Australia all year round,
there is always some beauty to be found.

Blue heaven milkshakes,
burgers and chips,
surfing the ocean,
all these things I'm going to miss,
B Bar & Grill is the place to go,
even if it's hot,
even if it's cold,
it's the place that I realised,
the beauty this world holds.

Dead Inside

Where'd you go,
your missing part of your soul,
your not the same as you used to be,
I can't even look in the mirror and call you me,
what have you done to your family,
you can argue with them so easily,
you are such a state,
you've turned in to someone I hate,
you can't do this anymore,
either stop - or walk out the door,
how are you ever gonna be happy,
if your mouth is so fucking snappy,
your doing it to everyone,
you make up the excuse your young,
no-one I know is as bad as you,
and your bringing them down to your level too,
I have to get away from it all,
before I make everyone fall,
I'm sorry I didn't mean to do this,
I've destroyed all my relationships.